Why, why, why? You hung your head low in the shower, letting the water wash over you and dribble into your mouth.
Your neck stiffened up the second your penis did. Your penis reacted positively to biceps, V’s, calves, and nice butts. It’s always going to be the less desirable road to take until everyone agrees that it’s not. And being gay is still considered difficult no matter how many rappers come out of the closet and movie stars thank their partners in acceptance speeches. This made him sad, regardless of his politics because parents don’t want their kids to lead a hard life. At home, your father began to look at you funny and that’s because he knew something you didn’t, he knew what was coming in a few years. You formed closer bonds with girls than boys. You got “weirder.” You dyed your hair bright colors. It was love without sex, love without a question mark.
It was nice thinking of love as this thing you could just give to anyone, like it was a blanket that kept you warm at night. You really loved them without knowing what the love meant. You would form close friendships with boys in elementary school, friendships that were intense for any 10-year-old to have, let alone a male.
